I went to therapy this morning. It was very productive. I read aloud a letter I had written to my father. It was an uncomfortable experience reading this personal letter. I was nervous reading it. Am I reading too fast? I’m definitely reading too fast. I should slow down. I’m…
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2:22PM. My schedule is drifting. I’m sad about this. Very sad. Last night my dad texted me and asked for help moving some furniture. My mood went south. I couldn’t focus anymore. This was the moment I’ve been anticipating for the past several weeks, the moment where my dad would…
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12:42PM. Just woke up to the sound of my phone vibrating. It was Frontier Behavioral Health, the office I go to for therapy twice a week. They call me too much with reminder calls. I don’t need them– I’m not going to forget!!! Anyway, today I’m going to repair a…
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12:01 PM. I just woke up and I’m getting warmed up before I shower and go to group therapy. I’m not training today as it’s my second cheat day of the week. I have taken a liking to taking a couple days off of training, as it seems to help…
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1:27PM. My couch is very uncomfortable to sleep on. I never feel rested but I also never wake up feeling super tired… I wake up with this feeling that I’m just ready to go. I’m concerned that I’m not hitting rem sleep or something, but I am definitely having dreams…
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I didn’t go to Sangha Service. I had a chance to wake up and go, but only with 3 hours of sleep under my belt. I decided to sleep. I’ll have another chance next week to attend! It’s 1:30PM. A. brought me her Co-dependents anonymous book. I’ll put it to…
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2PM. I just woke up and pooped. Sleep seems restful, but was uncomfortable. I kept waking up and still feeling tired. First I woke up at 7 or 8 AM and I had only gone to sleep around 3AM. I felt well enough to be functional, but I felt I…
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I woke up at 7:14AM today, before my alarm even had a chance to go off at 7:30. I only got about 5 hours of sleep but I feel okay. I don’t know if I’m rested or not rested due to how I’ve been sleeping on my couch. I threw…
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I’ve been putting something off for awhile because it’s uncomfortable and the thought makes me uneasy. I have to tell my dad that I need to detach from him financially. I don’t want to take any more projects from him. It’s my time to blaze my own trail and it’s…
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I just applied to Hatchways. They’re a new-ish bootcamp program that seems to have very good prices. I have been working a lot on my social anxiety lately, so I think I could have a chance at being able to work with a team now. I’ll need better internet for…
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