That’s right ladies and gentleman, my sell order for FLL went through. This is good news! It means I made 10% on my FLL ivestment. I’m sitting pretty, knamean? Rollin in the dough, knamean? Sitting on piles of duckets, knamean?

Ok not really, I just had one share to begin with, and it just executed for around $3.00 USD. Wooooooot. But jokes aside any time one of my sell orders goes through, it’s because the stock appreciated 10%. So it’s a good thing no matter how small. I’ve been trading stocks for about two years now, so every trade is just experience under my belt.

Hootie hoot hoot. Rub a dub dub. Mashed purtaturs end greevee!

FOR YOUR NICE WARM BATH.

I just had a nice warm shower. Very nice. Today I spent with my dad building a retaining wall at Racom Spokane. Winter is starting, and I’m really starting to feel it.

Tough work by the way. I’ve spent months in front of a computer screen so I feel really out of shape lifting 55 lbs garden bricks all day. It’s tough work indeed, I am going to be sore in the morning!

I start therapy tomorrow morning. Not looking forward to it, that’s for sure. I gotta talk about myself. Not looking forward to it, that’s for sure.

I took on a sewing project from my brother Brandon. I should have just said no. Now that I’ve got this retaining wall project, I don’t have any time to sew. And I feel like I charged him too much. Well, probably not. Since I think the project will take me 1 hours, that probably means it’ll take closer to 3. And $30 divided by 3 is $10 which is less than minimum wage.

I’m going to go with Louis Rossman on this one. Family should pay full price. Family should want to see you succeed. Not paying full price is not very nice. Since money is a language which communicates value, it would be saying the family member’s time has little value if a family member refused to pay full price.

I still feel guilty for asking for $30 to alter his tactical belt though. I think the feeling is just an artifact from being young and inexperienced with money.

I didn’t start caring about money until I was in my late 20s. It’s a shame, really. Because statistically speaking, I’ll be poor for the rest of my life.

I should clarify. People who drop out of HighSchool make thousands less than people who do. Statistically.

I’m a quitter, that’s for sure.

I’m so tired. I want to eat and play Project Diva. I don’t want to be writing right now! I’ll probably go to sleep early tonight. Which would be the best thing for me right now. I was so tired this morning. Couldn’t sleep last night. Took me about 4 hours to get to sleep. Spent 2 hour just laying in bed. Then got up and played project diva for about an hour. Then tried to sleep again and eventually succeeded.

Couldn’t get up. Woke up, re-set alarm to where I would have just barely enough time to get up and brush my teeth and get dressed. Then when I did get up, I just stood in place for a good 10 minutes. Couldn’t get moving.

But I did get moving, and I went outside. Took a bit of a walk before my dad showed up to give me a ride. My suburban broke down. I just ran it out of gas. It’s working again now since my dad gave me the lawnmower gas, and we stopped at the gas station after work and filled up another can.

I got gas all over my hand and now it smells. Can’t get the smell out. Keep washing my hands with every type of soap I have. Also tried shaving cream and vaseline. Still smells like gas, but less so.

I’m going to be sore in the morning. My hands are red from all the rubbing. I had gloves on but they were older and they wore through to my fingers pretty quick.

I’m hungry. Re-heating some curry to go with the rice I just cooked. I need to make sure to eat a lot because I want to feel energized in the morning.

I’m a big fan of cyclic fasting. Basically don’t eat unless it’s between the hours of 3PM to 9PM. Or something like that. I’m not sure what the best window of time is. I think it’s supposed to be 4 or 6 hours? Not sure. Anyway, It’s good practice. Gives my body time to rest and not have to process food 24/7. The trick is I really have to eat when it’s eating time though.

I don’t always have an appetite. Probably due to depression or due to the fact that the food I cook is not very palatable.

I need to do more research, and expand the list of meals I can prepare. Right now I make curry and that’s about it. Sometimes I make breadsticks, but I’m often out of the ingredients to do so.

I make oatmeal too, but it’s really not something to be proud of. Literally instant oats, hot water, and some fruit. Not very appetizing day in and day out.

Yesterday we had family dinner. Mom made me a most delicious mexican lasagna. It wasn’t that actually. I just don’t know what to call it. It ate like a lasagna. It was so fantastically delicious! It used mushrooms as the meat replacement, it had lots of yummy refried beans, tomatos, olives, all between layers of flour tortillas!

So good. I ate the whole thing. I don’t know why, but I’m incredibly afraid of M.’s girlfriend. Like every time I try to talk to her, it goes south. Every. Time. So last night I just avoided talking to her. I was still pretty anxious about the whole thing. She seems uncomfortable around me as well which just makes things worse.

My sisters had everyone make a christmas list. I put down lots of food items. Everyone thought I wanted food items for a specific recipe. Technically I did have one recipe in mind, vegetable curry. But those items could be used for anything really. I just put those food items down because I want to receive things I will actually use. I don’t want some off the shelf doohicky which is on sale around Christmas time and is actually just some cheap chinese crap I’ll never use and might not even open up out of the package.

Or nothing at all. I’d accept that. Don’t get me anything. I don’t want to be weighed down by things. I’m actually planning on being homeless in the near future. School didn’t work out. School has never worked out for me. I have some sort of complex that is incompatible with being taught.

Yeah, I gotta get rid of some shit. Anything I had listed on eBay I’ll just take to Goodwill. Anything electronics based or DooM D3VICES related I’ll give to R. Anything airsoft I’ll give to B.

I’m not sure if I’ll keep my electric longboard. It’s a really nice board but I don’t use it ever. If I want to go do some outdoorsy shit I’ll take my rollerblades. Maybe I’ll give it to E for Christmas! Or should I give it to D? Or B? Or M? Not really sure. Either way, I don’t think I should keep it around since It’s no longer my style.

It’s a high value item though. Maybe I can’t give it to any sibling because it could make people jelly.

I’d have to give everyone a high value item.

Curry’s done! I’m thinking of finishing my 1500 words for the day before I eat, though.

I should probably eat.

All I want for Christmas is Hatsune Miku.

I want Miku to sit on my face. Instant bonerville, population me!

All jokes aside, if someone gets me Hatsune Miku merch for Christmas, they know me the best.

I wonder what the future holds. I wonder how long I will live. I wonder if the curry I make for myself is actually a hazard to my health? It has quite a bit of saturated fat. Something like 60% of the recommended daily value. Granted, I don’t actually eat all the curry at once. I usually eat it over a span of 2 days. But still, isn’t saturated fat the stuff that gives people heart attacks?

This is why I want to talk to a nutritionist. Also I want to get tested for food allergies. I think I already wrote about this. But really, I have to say it again. I’m offended that doctors are so quick to prescribe me antidepressants when what I really need is

• emotional support
• nutrition advice
• vitamin recommendations
• exercise
• lifestyle critique

Just what are primary care providers anymore? I’m going to go ahead and say they are just drug dispensaries which offer services on the side.

Mr. Robot 408 aired last night. Holy mackerel, what a twist! I thought Dom’s family was done for sure. I thought Dom was as good as dead too. Prior to that episode, I thought Dom was going to come up with a way to become a hero and save Elliot and Darlene some how. I guess my prediction was only half right.

Dom will hopefully survive. I like her character a lot. Next what I think is going to happen is Elliot and Darlene will come together to form a new dream team. They did so well as a team in 405. Such an epic hack, with fantastic cinematography as well.

OK 1500 words down. I’m going to go eat. Catch ya tomorrow!