I think I might have got banned from Nerds United.

Yesterday I opened Discord, looking for the Nerds United server, and it wasn’t there. I messaged a friend who is in Nerds United, to see if he can still see the server. I haven’t heard back yet. I tried to message the organizer but I guess we aren’t Discord friends, and we don’t have any servers in common.

I definitely lost access to the server, but I’m not sure why.

I think the most likely thing is because of the pun website I made. When I was transcribing the jokes from my 1960 The Little Pun Book, I noticed that there were some puns that haven’t aged well. They contained spicy words that could be considered offensive, but I didn’t want to censor the book and I didn’t want to censor myself, so I included everything verbatim.

I’m still not sure if I’m banned. Maybe the Discord server got deleted because of inactivity. Maybe there’s another reason. I can’t say for sure at the moment.

I’m sad, either way. If the server got deleted without warning, I feel for the organizer who has not been able to host the group for months and months. If I am banned, I’m sad that I was not given a warning or an explanation. I don’t think I’ve ever done anything that was against the rules in the server, and I would feel diminished and undignified if I was blocked without having been given a note on why it was happening.

I did some yoga, and thought about Nerds United. I had some really good times in the past. Meeting at Dragon Parlor Games was always fun, even though I struggled with extreme social anxiety on several occasions.

I think about “The Last” meditation from Sam Harris’s Waking Up app. Was my last board game meetup with Nerds United on Halloween last year? I never would have anticipated that. Reality is strange.

I haven’t given up yet. I would like to return to Nerds United and play board games with friends. However, I am prepared for any outcome.

If I really have been banned without warning or explanation, I would feel unwelcome. I would move on, and find another group.

I’m going to do some meditation after this. Today after therapy I took a nap, so I missed 10AM meditation. It’s 9PM right now. Time has flown today.

I did get out on my bicycle, which felt great. I rode around the block.

Apparently there’s a third round of stimulus checks. My bank has been texting me with updates, and apparently I’m getting $1,400 as early as March 17th. I’m stoked and frustrated… Stoked to get some free money, frustrated that the US Dollar is becoming even more of a shitcoin.

Oh well, I guess I have access to Bitcoin, so it’s not all bad.

I was thinking of dumping all the money into Bitcoin as soon as I get it.

Heck, when have my cryptocurrency investments ever been a bad idea?

Wwait, I guess I should say specifically Bitcoin, not all cryptocurrencies. There are a ton of shitcoins out there. Remember the DAO, and Bitconnect?

Thankfully I never got into either the DAO or Bitconnect.

Ok then, Bitcoin. Say I dump all $1,400 into Bitcoin right away. If I need something, I can use Purse.io to buy it using Bitcoin.

I guess I have plans to buy some inventory, so I’ll need some Paypal funds for that.

Ok so, half? Yeah $700 sounds good.

I’ll probably put it all on FIL, to be honest. My FIL investment has more than doubled at this point. I expect FIL to continue being kickass, for as long as the internet exists and people are hoarders of data.

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I think I might be a creeper.

I mean, I’m pretty sure I already wrote about this before. I might totally be a creeper, but I’m not about to use that as an excuse to hate myself.

Creeper is just a point of view, anyway. A creeper to one person might be a sweetheart to another person. So I think all I’m really saying is…

I think there are people out there who might not like me.

And that’s okay. I don’t like certain people and it’s not a bad thing to dislike certain people. Everybody discriminates on this or that. I don’t mean the things that are considered socially unacceptable such as race or gender. What I mean is people discriminate against things like body odor, hobbies/interests, age.

I mean, I don’t want to be friends with an 80 year old cat lady. It’s not wrong or strange to discriminate like that when choosing friends.

That’s it for now. Here’s some brainwashing.. I mean affirmations

• I like talking with people.
• I like having friends.
• I like forming relationships.
• There are people out there who love me.
• There are people out there who I love.
• Life is exciting and enjoyable.
• My patience is paying off.
• Empathy is cool, bro.
• Things are looking good!
• I’m excited to ride my bike tomorrow!

Excelsior!