Sat Jan 4 2020 @ 7:34 AM


Hey, my alarm actually went off this morning! Very cool indeed. Unfortunately, I feel like going straight back to bed!

The wind is going crazy outside. I kept hearing things getting knocked over during the night. I kept thinking a tree was going to snap and fall on my apartment. Oh no, I bet the garbage can at the end of the driveway is blown over and the bags are going to be everywhere and ripped apart and it’ll be a huge mess.

I for reals need a new chair. My butt is not in good shape from sitting on this hard wood chair all the time.

I was thinking of making a chair. I have all the parts picked out in my head. I’d build it with 4×4 legs, a plywood top, and add a foam seat covered in fabric. I’d make it really wide, like an ottoman with a back to lean on. This way I could sit crosslegged on it really comfortably. I like to sit crosslegged now but it strains my knees as my legs spill over the edges on either side. I bet I could build it for super cheap, too. Compared to a store bought chair of course. The only thing standing in my way is money. Moneymoneymoney.

I had a dream that I was desperate for cash so I used my connections with a friend who worked in banking. They hired me as an armed security guard. I had to bring my own gun. I brought this long rifle thing. It had a huge magwell like a nerf gun.

My co-worker/sensei who was an armed guard as well gave me a pistol to carry. The thing was huge. It wasn’t concealable under my suit, and I couldn’t tuck it into my pants because the “P-trigger” would get bumped and it would discharge.

The world had a classic 30s vibe, and this poor girl who worked at the bank with me was actually getting charged to work there. This fact was exposed when I was signing paperwork to start employment, and she asked how much I paid so far. I said nothing, and she was in shock.

There was this other girl who was a few years younger and had some sort of health issue that made her jittery. I was jittery as well because I had been training and my strength had increased. Sitting down was no longer easy to do and I was tapping my foot against the ground to try and burn off calories.

The older of the two girls brought up that the younger girl had a health issue that makes her insatiably horny. I started to get horny from hearing this, and I was afraid my pheromones would trigger her to jump on me and initiate sex. I got really nervous and looked away at some soda vending machines nearby. Looking away helped me contain my libido.

I was finishing signing the paperwork while the two women who were having me sign papers went out to their cars to grab their lunch. I felt anxious to be alone in the bank. They brought back their lunches a few minutes later, which consisted of Fritos and Lays chips.

Later, the group of bankers was going to a meeting outside the bank. I was to escort them, so I wanted to grab my rifle. My supervisor/sensei handed me the huge pistol at that point. I tried to hide it under my shirt in all sorts of ways, but ended up just holding it in my hand because the thing was so massive.

Then the alarm went off. I think it’s easier to recall dreams if I’m woken up mid-dream. It’s interesting how that works.

Gee, I’m tired. I sure would like an extra hour of sleep or so. I’ll probably go back to bed any minute. I don’t think I can hold out unless I go for a walk. Maybe exercise should be my first thing. Maybe…

I’m doin it, my eyes won’t stay open. Maybe someday I’ll have a better method of waking up.


I slept for a few hours and it’s 10:31 AM. I still don’t feel rested. I guess I feel more rested, but not completely. I feel better, that’s for sure. I think I might be overtraining. My body is pretty stiff. I think today might be just a walking day. No pushups or squats.

I got my recipe all lined up for trying out on recipe monday! It’s vegan pancakes from Lisa Lansing. I have seen her and Kuba eat these on several occasions, and she finally got her recipe just right to where she shared it.

  • 1 cup all purpose white flour
  • 1 cup whole wheat flour
  • 2 Tbsp baking powder
  • 1 tsp salt
  • 2 bananas
  • 2 cup water
  • 1 Tbsp apple cider vinegar

Combine dry ingredients in a bowl and whisk together. In another bowl, mash both bananas and mix with water and vinegar. Mix well. Combine wet and dry ingredients and whisk together to create batter.

Wait 5-8 minutes for baking powder to react. Preheat a pan for 5 minutes on medium-high heat. Use a 1/2 cup measuring cup to scoop pancake batter onto pan. Let pancake cook between 1:30 to 2:00 minutes on each side.

Serve warm with peanut butter and/or jelly.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OUyRx7BL7Qc

So I’m just gonna get these ingredients today or tomorrow, and Monday I’ll have everything I need to make these.

Aaaand I’m outta things to talk about. Yesterday was super super busy. I didn’t even code yesterday. Instead I spent time on VOCALOID Discord and listed a bunch of things on eBay. I pulled some things off Bonanza and combined them into one listing which I’m putting as auction style on eBay. Unfortunately, Bonanza doesn’t let me list on eBay doing auction style. It only lets me list on eBay using a fixed price with best offer.

I think I’m just going to bite the bullet and use eBay more. Bonanza has such great potential, but I don’t get the views on Bonanza. I’ll stomach the fees and just do eBay for now. With eBay I can get shit out of here ASAP.

I already sold some pegboard baskets! 4 out of 6 are sold. I packaged them up last night, they were so awkward to package! I used about 5 different boxes and wrapped the baskets up using the cardboard. Then I threw on a ton of tape. It’s super ugly but it should get the job done.

My method for getting sales is to start the auctions at $1 with free shipping. I usually sort by lowest cost + shipping first, so using this method, I think the most people will see it. This way, the item should sell at market value. The people will only pay as much as they think it’s worth. This should result in good feedback, and it accomplishes my main goal of decluttering and getting rid of everything except for things I use on a daily basis.

It’s going good so far. I think i’ll have no problem keeping up with listing 1 thing per day. Yesterday I think I listed 4 items. Several were just of things I was transferring over from Bonanza, so I didn’t think that was a bad thing.

Today I’m thinking of listing my Hatsune Miku penlight. When I woke up, I looked up at my shrine and I noticed it just sitting there. The thing is, I don’t think I want to pursue Wotagei with any soft of fervor. It’s just a thing I will do when I go to concerts. The other thing is, this penlight is too precious to take to conventions. I already have my two matching Kings Blades, and these are perfect for me.

The Miku penlight is much larger, less comfortable in my hand, and not as bright. It would be great to use at a Miku expo, but I don’t think I’ll be visiting a Miku concert until 2021 or beyond. I just don’t have the funds to go to such an event, and I really want to prioritize getting out of debt this year.

I think I’ll sell it, and let someone with a passion for attending concerts enjoy it. I mean, I fit that category well, but my goals right now are to live out of a truck. As sad as it is, my Miku shrine isn’t going to fit in my truck. I’ll have to focus on a virtual collection for the time being.

That’s the wonderful thing about the internet. I am incredibly wealthy thanks to the internet. I’m not talking about monetary wealth, I’m talking about a wealth of knowledge. I can learn anything I want online. I can watch any movie or TV show I want online.

Speaking of TV shows, I want to watch the Mandelorian. I don’t have Disney+ so I’m just going to pirate it. Just like I did with Mr. Robot. See how wealthy I am?

Mr. Robot is over! It was a good ending. I thought they were going with the Sci-Fi ending, but it ended out to just be in Elliot’s head. Season 4 had a ton of plot twists, and it was a great finish. It actually turned out as a happy ending, which is really surprising given how many main characters were killed off.

I understand the start of the series now. How Elliot talks to the audience… That wasn’t Elliot after all! It was the mastermind talking to Elliot. I think that’s how it was anyway. Maybe it was the other way around? Nah I think it was the mastermind.

Anyway, It gives the show extra re-watch value now. I’ll have to binge watch it down the line and I think I’ll see all sorts of things that I wouldn’t have picked up the first or second or third time. I re-watched a bunch of episodes twice already. During season 4 I was so antsy to see the next episode that I just resorted to watching the episode a second or third time!

Now I have the whole picture on the labyrinth inside Elliot’s head.

I have an old android phone with a Litecoin wallet on it. I’m having one hell of a time transferring the Litecoin off of it. I was able to do a blockchain send to my new phone, but I was worried it wouldn’t work and I just sent 40 cents worth to try. It worked, but it locked up the application and now it’s having to re-sync with the blockchain. 67 months behind!

It seems like it’s having to actually download the whole blockchain. It’s taking hours to update by even a month. The phone is heating up quite a bit. 66 months behind!

I think it should be done in the next few days, LOL! After that, hopefully I’ll be able to send the remaining funds to my other phone.

I can’t wait to get rid of this old phone. It was nice at the time. I rooted it, and ran custom firmware. It feels so SOLID in my hand compared to any other phone I’ve owned. HTC Inspire 4G. It’s way behind in features today, but at the time, it was pretty sick.

I’ll be auctioning it off on eBay as soon as I can transfer the Litecoin and give it a good ol’ factory reset.

It’s really dark in my apartment right now. Not much light is coming through the windows. I suppose I should turn my interior lights on. Not sure why I didn’t.

Hmm yes. I do believe I am out of things to talk about. No wait, I got something.

I feel incredibly blessed and happy to be living like I have been living for the past few days. I get to talk to a counselor, and I get to do EXACTLY what I want to do. I pick things in this world that are important to me, and I add them to my routine. My routine is EXACTLY what I want to be doing with my life!

That’s why I’m hesitant to apply for jobs. If I introduce a job into my life, my happiness is sure to decline. A job is doing things other people want me to do. It’s no longer about me, it’s about them.

I don’t want to talk about it any more than that. It makes me uncomfortable to think about doing a regular job.

I would like to think that by living out of a vehicle, I would have a lot more motivation to do things. That’s what I WANT to think. I don’t know if it’s accurate.

That reminds me. One of the things on my todo list is to make my Suburban more livable. After I walk this morning, I will make sure and accomplish that goal today. What should I do? Apply window tint? No wait, I think it has to be warm to apply tint. It’s 43degF and I think it’s supposed to be around 70degF to apply tint.

I’m not really sure what I can do right now. Clean it I guess? There are two bags of trash in the back. I could get rid of those. And I could remove my dad’s shovel and rake that are in there. Maybe I’ll do that.

I’ll figure something out. Just not feeling motivated right now. I think I overdid it yesterday. Hopefully my morning walk remedies that!

I’m grateful for free online recipes. I’m grateful for vegan menu items Del Taco. I’m grateful for vegan menu items at Red Robin. That reminds me, I forgot to thank my dad for Red Robin the other day.

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