I’m angry. The internet is down. COVID-19 has struck fear into the hearts and minds of everyone. Public meetings of over 10 people are banned in Washington for the next 2 weeks by order of the governor. No bars, no entertainment, no saturday board games, no church, no school, no…
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Greetings and salutations. Last night, I started to play Squad but then I got peer pressured into being commander and I got overwhelmed and stressed out and I couldn’t handle the pressure or the need to give orders. I hit Alt+F4 and turned off my PC and went to bed.…
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5:58 AM. My sleep schedule has been reset! I’m happy about that. Yesterday I did not write my target word count of 2000 words. I only got to 500 but I’m not going to beat myself up about it. I focused on self-care yesterday, and I felt excellent because of…
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I couldn’t sleep. Fuck me. I’ve got something on my mind that is bothering me, and I’m distracting myself rather than dealing with it. I don’t know what it is. Perhaps it is the money situation. It’s probably the money situation. I wanna sleep, but I don’t think I’ll be…
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I’m at Dragon Parlor Games. I don’t know anyone here other than B., J., and D. I wish D. was here because I have nobody to talk to. I’m nervous. I will practice opposite action. I backed out of playing Cards against Humanity after I was dealt my hand and…
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I want to write a new novel. How cool would it be to be an author? Wait a minute, I’m already an author. Let me rephrase. How cool would it to be a prolific author? Like, a novel a year for the rest of my life? That would be something.…
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My therapist took me on as my CoDA “pseudo sponsor” until the time when I find a sponsor of my own. Last Friday she gave me a list of questions which I am supposed to ponder on and answer at our next meeting, this Friday at 9:30AM. The questions are…
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Group therapy today. I’m sitting in the waiting area. I organized my papers using the binder thingy that I used to keep important papers in. Wow this paper writes smooth! I’m surprised that this paper writes so well and it’s only a BASIC tablet. I got it at a thrift…
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I shaved my head. I like the idea of new beginnings. I was also influenced by some bald gentleman that I look to and follow on social media. Joe Rogan and Scott Manley. I just got back from Therapy. I only got like 3 hours of sleep this morning. I…
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Schedule drift is real. 2:11PM. Actually I woke up today at about the same time as I did yesterday, so that’s not too bad. The bad part is when I went to sleep. I went to sleep this morning at approximately 7:30 AM. That’s a definite drift. I don’t want…
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Arrived at Spokane Buddhist Temple 3 minutes early, but had to pee so bad that I couldn’t go in. They have a toilet I’m sure, but I don’t know where it is. I’m pretty sure it’s in the basement. Fuck. All this way and I’m not prepared. I was excited…
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