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Sun Feb 23 2020
I didn’t reach my target word count yesterday. I wrote for about 15 minutes or so, then I was too tired to write anything further. I blame sleep schedule madness. I need a job. I am nearing the point where shit is going to come collapsing down on me. Credit cards are maxed out… I’m […]
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Wed Jan 15 2020
I think I’ve made a connection which has informed me on exactly why I sometimes wake up completely exhausted. It’s food. I was snacking on trail mix and raisins last night just about an hour or two before bed. That food in my stomach made it almost impossible for me to fall asleep because I […]
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Sun Jan 12 2020
I feel insatiable 10. I’m getting high so high. Old habits. This will drive me straight into depression if I keep this up. It’s 4:51 AM. I spent the last 7 hours doing bullshit that I didn’t need to do. I could have gone to sleep at 9PM when I was tired. Instead I’ve been […]
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Thu Jan 9 2020
I’m at therapy. I need to pee and poo but I’m holding it because I don’t know if the bathroom is occupied or not. I’m feeling very vulnerable and sad and afraid. It is fear that is preventing me from knocking on that restroom door. Oh, I just witnessed someone else do it. I guess […]