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Tue May 26 2020
I went walking outside and it was nice. I did some meditation and got into a mind space where I was observing without judgement. I think doing so triggered a reset in my brain, because after I resumed walking I noticed things around me as if I were seeing them for the first time. It […]
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Wed Apr 29 2020
6:41 AM. Just walked two outgoing packages to the mailbox. Sewing machine accessories that I bought from UGM thrift store in Jan or Feb. I spent like $30 on a handful of sewing machine parts and I went through and listed them individually on eBay. I think I’m making a return on them by now, […]
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Fri Apr 17 2020
仕事。Blogging is working. Working is blogging. But is it really? I suppose it can be, if the act of publishing and gaining readers is something that can be monetized. The way I’m doing things right now, it’s not monetization. I don’t publish! Well, I schedule my writings to be published, 2 years from when I […]
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Wed Mar 18 2020
Group therapy is cancelled. Individual therapy is changed to phone-only, as FBH is closing their doors to the public. Wild shit. Is COVID-19 really this bad? There have been 18 corona viruses before it, but somehow #19 is this huge threat? I don’t understand. I wonder if this is an overreaction? Well, this is life […]
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Mon Mar 9 2020
9:48AM. There’s a big truck outside my window which I believe has an industrial wood chipper. It’s making a ton of noise and the house shakes. Every now and then I hear a chainsaw. My dad must have got a crew to come take care of the diseased trees. Apparently there are beetles which are […]
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Wed Feb 26 2020
I missed CoDA. I slept through it. I woke up at midnight and I didn’t know the time, so I told myself, “If I can make it to CoDA, I’m going to CoDA.” Nope. Lol. Not too worried about it. 2:49 AM. So far this morning, I have read out of 6 different books. I […]
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Fri Jan 31 2020
I went to therapy this morning. It was very productive. I read aloud a letter I had written to my father. It was an uncomfortable experience reading this personal letter. I was nervous reading it. Am I reading too fast? I’m definitely reading too fast. I should slow down. I’m nervous, I can’t slow down! […]
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Mon Jan 27 2020
1:27PM. My couch is very uncomfortable to sleep on. I never feel rested but I also never wake up feeling super tired… I wake up with this feeling that I’m just ready to go. I’m concerned that I’m not hitting rem sleep or something, but I am definitely having dreams so I think that might […]
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Sun Jan 26 2020
I didn’t go to Sangha Service. I had a chance to wake up and go, but only with 3 hours of sleep under my belt. I decided to sleep. I’ll have another chance next week to attend! It’s 1:30PM. A. brought me her Co-dependents anonymous book. I’ll put it to good use! I gotta poop […]
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Thu Jan 16 2020 @ 5:04AM
Bad sleep schedule! I wrote about it yesterday a bit. Slept during the evening. Woke up and went HAM on the eBay listings. Got all caught up. Now I wanna go to sleep but I really need to run these 3 bubble mailers to the mailbox before I crash. I ate at 2AM so I […]
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Wed Jan 15 2020
I think I’ve made a connection which has informed me on exactly why I sometimes wake up completely exhausted. It’s food. I was snacking on trail mix and raisins last night just about an hour or two before bed. That food in my stomach made it almost impossible for me to fall asleep because I […]