It’s a day and I’m sticking to it. I am not feeling too positive today. I don’t want to type. I want to give up and bury my head in the sand. I don’t know how I’m going to make rent, if my tax return doesn’t show up in the…
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The schedule drift is real. I went to sleep at around 6AM this morning, and woke up around 4PM. It’s 5:30 now, I just finished a walk and shower. I think I need to do something about this schedule drift, or I’ll spiral into depression again. Well, I think the…
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I went to therapy this morning. It was very productive. I read aloud a letter I had written to my father. It was an uncomfortable experience reading this personal letter. I was nervous reading it. Am I reading too fast? I’m definitely reading too fast. I should slow down. I’m…
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12:42PM. Just woke up to the sound of my phone vibrating. It was Frontier Behavioral Health, the office I go to for therapy twice a week. They call me too much with reminder calls. I don’t need them– I’m not going to forget!!! Anyway, today I’m going to repair a…
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12:01 PM. I just woke up and I’m getting warmed up before I shower and go to group therapy. I’m not training today as it’s my second cheat day of the week. I have taken a liking to taking a couple days off of training, as it seems to help…
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I didn’t go to Sangha Service. I had a chance to wake up and go, but only with 3 hours of sleep under my belt. I decided to sleep. I’ll have another chance next week to attend! It’s 1:30PM. A. brought me her Co-dependents anonymous book. I’ll put it to…
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2PM. I just woke up and pooped. Sleep seems restful, but was uncomfortable. I kept waking up and still feeling tired. First I woke up at 7 or 8 AM and I had only gone to sleep around 3AM. I felt well enough to be functional, but I felt I…
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I’ve been putting something off for awhile because it’s uncomfortable and the thought makes me uneasy. I have to tell my dad that I need to detach from him financially. I don’t want to take any more projects from him. It’s my time to blaze my own trail and it’s…
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I just applied to Hatchways. They’re a new-ish bootcamp program that seems to have very good prices. I have been working a lot on my social anxiety lately, so I think I could have a chance at being able to work with a team now. I’ll need better internet for…
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I get to go to therapy today! God is good. I am happy to be me. I’m still kinda tripping on mushrooms. I still have a mess to clean up. I’m happy to clean it! It beats the alternative reality where I am alone with nobody to talk to, nothing…
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Fri Jan 17 2020
Jolly Day, mateys! I just realized that WordPress gutenberg has an audio block! I’ve been using video blocks for the longest time to play music. Silly me! It only makes sense that there’s an audio block! I’ve got my #jamuary2020 day 16 track stuck in my head. It’s good shit!…