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Mon Jul 20 2020
3:03 AM. Can’t sleep. Restless legs and tense stomach muscles. After laying in bed for about an hour, I decided to get up and watch anime. Watching miru tights. This is someone’s fetish. LOL. I’m just not into it. Tights are a thin piece of fabric which get in the way of what I actually […]
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Thu May 14 2020
I seem to have relapsed… Kinda sorta. I couldn’t sleep last night. I was literally worried sick about the negative feedback I received on eBay. Literally sick to my stomach. I couldn’t even work through it because I had worked through it like 5 times prior. At that point, there were layers and layers of […]
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Wed Apr 15 2020
I want to do 4 things today. journal read ebay github I also want to eat, but that’s not really an option LOLLERSKATESLMAFOBBQ. I have some food. I’m going to make some flatbread using this CM Coleman recipe. Actually I’m going to go start that process right now, because it takes an hour for the […]
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Tue Mar 24 2020
I had another bad dream this morning. I was with my brothers D. and M. when they were really young. For some reason, we were taking a break and we stopped at a shopping center. We walked through the parking lot to a grassy area between buildings. There was a steep cliff beyond the grass, […]
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Fri Mar 20 2020
2020202020202020 I hear that a shelter in place order is going to occur soon. I guess I need to get some rice. I wonder if my EBT card has a balance yet? Yup, it has a balance now. It just got reloaded yesterday. Interestingly, the website shows the past several transactions, including the rejected transaction […]
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Mon Mar 9 2020
9:48AM. There’s a big truck outside my window which I believe has an industrial wood chipper. It’s making a ton of noise and the house shakes. Every now and then I hear a chainsaw. My dad must have got a crew to come take care of the diseased trees. Apparently there are beetles which are […]
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Sun Feb 23 2020
I didn’t reach my target word count yesterday. I wrote for about 15 minutes or so, then I was too tired to write anything further. I blame sleep schedule madness. I need a job. I am nearing the point where shit is going to come collapsing down on me. Credit cards are maxed out… I’m […]
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Thu Jan 23 2020
I’ve been putting something off for awhile because it’s uncomfortable and the thought makes me uneasy. I have to tell my dad that I need to detach from him financially. I don’t want to take any more projects from him. It’s my time to blaze my own trail and it’s necessary I do so if […]
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Thu Jan 9 2020
I’m at therapy. I need to pee and poo but I’m holding it because I don’t know if the bathroom is occupied or not. I’m feeling very vulnerable and sad and afraid. It is fear that is preventing me from knocking on that restroom door. Oh, I just witnessed someone else do it. I guess […]
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Mon Jan 6 2020 @ 1:44 PM PST
This morning I woke up and realized I need to do something about my sleep quality. I seem to not be able to stay asleep. I don’t think my be is comfortable enough for me to properly relax. This morning I went to Trader Joe’s. I used my gift card up and I got to […]