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Mon Jul 20 2020
3:03 AM. Can’t sleep. Restless legs and tense stomach muscles. After laying in bed for about an hour, I decided to get up and watch anime. Watching miru tights. This is someone’s fetish. LOL. I’m just not into it. Tights are a thin piece of fabric which get in the way of what I actually […]
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Mon Jun 22 2020
I forgot to write yesterday. Or rather, I spent very little time on the computer. I did laundry and chilled with my family. I had a Zoom call with my therapist this morning. We talked about what I felt last week during the time when I tried to sell my Suburban. Apparently I have made […]
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Sat Jun 13 2020
It feels so good to sleep in for once. 2:19PM. I woke up at 7:30 and took care of five shipments. Then I went back to sleep. I’m surprised I slept all the way till the afternoon! It’s cloudy and rainy today. Last night at 3AM I awoke to the sound of thunder. I had […]
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Thu May 21 2020
I had a fucked up dream. I was on the field of the elementary school I went to. It was all ice and myself and other students were sliding around on the ice. The ice was perfectly flat, smooth, and walking on it would accelerate me fast. There was no way to stop, and I […]
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Fri May 1 2020
Paying rent yesterday was painful. I have so little money to spend on myself, and I spend a huge chunk of my income on rent. I loot at my upcoming expenses and I realize that I can’t spend money on myself at all. I have food stamps for food, and no money whatsoever for anything […]
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Mon Apr 20 2020
12:40 PM. Today I didn’t journal right when I woke up. I instead exercised and got packages ready to ship. I had about 10 packages and 2 letters go out today. That’s quite the difference from this month’s trend! I owe it all to the economic stimulus package I’m sure. Lots of people going out […]
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Tue Mar 24 2020
I had another bad dream this morning. I was with my brothers D. and M. when they were really young. For some reason, we were taking a break and we stopped at a shopping center. We walked through the parking lot to a grassy area between buildings. There was a steep cliff beyond the grass, […]
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Fri Mar 6 2020
Ok the past few days have been sub 2000 words and it’s no big deal. I deserve a break and I deserve self-care and I deserve to be well and happy. Actually I don’t want to be happy all the time. It’s something I’ve thought about quite a bit. If I were happy all the […]
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Mon Mar 2 2020
9:10AM. I already read a bunch of pages in I thought it was just me by Brene Brown, and I exercised. Walking, jogging, yoga, and pushups. Then I showered and packed and shipped 2 eBay sales and I walked them to the mailbox. I couldn’t do as much yoga as I wanted to do. As […]
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Tue Feb 25 2020
I couldn’t sleep. Fuck me. I’ve got something on my mind that is bothering me, and I’m distracting myself rather than dealing with it. I don’t know what it is. Perhaps it is the money situation. It’s probably the money situation. I wanna sleep, but I don’t think I’ll be able to wake up in […]
