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Thu May 14 2020
I seem to have relapsed… Kinda sorta. I couldn’t sleep last night. I was literally worried sick about the negative feedback I received on eBay. Literally sick to my stomach. I couldn’t even work through it because I had worked through it like 5 times prior. At that point, there were layers and layers of […]
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Sat May 9 2020
My FICO score is 599. It used to be at 800 before I got these three credit cards and maxed them out like a chump. I’m going to get out of debt someday soon, and improve my credit. I’m doing my darndest to make it happen! I had a little slip up. I was late […]
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Wed Apr 15 2020
I want to do 4 things today. journal read ebay github I also want to eat, but that’s not really an option LOLLERSKATESLMAFOBBQ. I have some food. I’m going to make some flatbread using this CM Coleman recipe. Actually I’m going to go start that process right now, because it takes an hour for the […]
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Fri Mar 27 2020
I sold a crappy $5 android phone on eBay. I am 90% confident that this person is going to scam me. Their initial communication with me was asking for the IMEI, and they asked before buying. I declined to give them the IMEI, after which they bought the item and insisted on receiving the IMEI. […]
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Sun Mar 15 2020
Good morning! Last night I got hella high. The computer high, as in the shit I do when I let my computer addiction run wild. I don’t even feel bad about it, which is a really nice for a change. So I was angry yesterday early. I was angry that I didn’t wake up early […]
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Wed Mar 11 2020
My back hurts. Too many hours hunched over my desk trying to see the monitor more clearly as I play Squad. I slept like shit because I ate too much, too soon before bed. The past few times I’ve played squad, it really wasn’t fun. I’ve just been a bullet magnet. I think it’s because […]
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Fri Feb 7 2020
9:30AM. Therapy today. Feeling anxious. Only got 3 hours ofsleep. Lots of scared thoughts are going on in my head this morning. I’m afraid I’m dying because I can feel my shin bones. I’m afraid of crying because I’ve been dulling my feelings about my dad. K. gave me two sheets of paper with affirmations […]
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Wed Jan 22 2020
I just applied to Hatchways. They’re a new-ish bootcamp program that seems to have very good prices. I have been working a lot on my social anxiety lately, so I think I could have a chance at being able to work with a team now. I’ll need better internet for sure. I think a wifi […]
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Tue Jan 21 2020
I get to go to therapy today! God is good. I am happy to be me. I’m still kinda tripping on mushrooms. I still have a mess to clean up. I’m happy to clean it! It beats the alternative reality where I am alone with nobody to talk to, nothing to do, and no future! […]