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Fri May 1 2020
Paying rent yesterday was painful. I have so little money to spend on myself, and I spend a huge chunk of my income on rent. I loot at my upcoming expenses and I realize that I can’t spend money on myself at all. I have food stamps for food, and no money whatsoever for anything […]
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Fri Apr 3 2020
I forgive myself. I just want to start with that. Had a call with my therapist K. this morning. I started out the call in bad place, and I ended the call in a bad place. I woke up at 9AM and I took the garbage to the street, and some packages to the mailbox. […]
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Sun Mar 15 2020
Good morning! Last night I got hella high. The computer high, as in the shit I do when I let my computer addiction run wild. I don’t even feel bad about it, which is a really nice for a change. So I was angry yesterday early. I was angry that I didn’t wake up early […]
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Fri Mar 6 2020
Ok the past few days have been sub 2000 words and it’s no big deal. I deserve a break and I deserve self-care and I deserve to be well and happy. Actually I don’t want to be happy all the time. It’s something I’ve thought about quite a bit. If I were happy all the […]