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Tue Feb 18 2020
Group therapy today. I’m sitting in the waiting area. I organized my papers using the binder thingy that I used to keep important papers in. Wow this paper writes smooth! I’m surprised that this paper writes so well and it’s only a BASIC tablet. I got it at a thrift store. CoDA is tonight at […]
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Fri Feb 14 2020
I shaved my head. I like the idea of new beginnings. I was also influenced by some bald gentleman that I look to and follow on social media. Joe Rogan and Scott Manley. I just got back from Therapy. I only got like 3 hours of sleep this morning. I planned on waking at 6:30, […]
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Wed Feb 12 2020
1:35PM. I woke up at 9, then went back to sleep. Woke up at 11, then went back to sleep Woke up at 12, went back to sleep, Woke up at 1, went back to sleep. I feel like I could repeat this all day without any consequences other than the emotional ones of feeling […]
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Mon Feb 10 2020
Good Morning. Today I struggled to get out of bed. I finally did at about 12PM. Not bad, given the increasingly late wake times I’ve been having. Anyway, I’m up now, and I took care of a couple shipments. A Sprint signal booster for $26.96 with free shipping. Now that I sold it, I see […]
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Fri Jan 31 2020
I went to therapy this morning. It was very productive. I read aloud a letter I had written to my father. It was an uncomfortable experience reading this personal letter. I was nervous reading it. Am I reading too fast? I’m definitely reading too fast. I should slow down. I’m nervous, I can’t slow down! […]
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Thu Jan 30 2020
2:22PM. My schedule is drifting. I’m sad about this. Very sad. Last night my dad texted me and asked for help moving some furniture. My mood went south. I couldn’t focus anymore. This was the moment I’ve been anticipating for the past several weeks, the moment where my dad would come to me with a […]
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Wed Jan 29 2020
12:42PM. Just woke up to the sound of my phone vibrating. It was Frontier Behavioral Health, the office I go to for therapy twice a week. They call me too much with reminder calls. I don’t need them– I’m not going to forget!!! Anyway, today I’m going to repair a oneplus one and get it […]
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Tue Jan 28 2020
12:01 PM. I just woke up and I’m getting warmed up before I shower and go to group therapy. I’m not training today as it’s my second cheat day of the week. I have taken a liking to taking a couple days off of training, as it seems to help my body refresh and repair […]
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Fri Jan 24 2020
I woke up at 7:14AM today, before my alarm even had a chance to go off at 7:30. I only got about 5 hours of sleep but I feel okay. I don’t know if I’m rested or not rested due to how I’ve been sleeping on my couch. I threw away my Japanese futon because […]
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Thu Jan 23 2020
I’ve been putting something off for awhile because it’s uncomfortable and the thought makes me uneasy. I have to tell my dad that I need to detach from him financially. I don’t want to take any more projects from him. It’s my time to blaze my own trail and it’s necessary I do so if […]
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Tue Jan 21 2020
I get to go to therapy today! God is good. I am happy to be me. I’m still kinda tripping on mushrooms. I still have a mess to clean up. I’m happy to clean it! It beats the alternative reality where I am alone with nobody to talk to, nothing to do, and no future! […]