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Mon Apr 27 2020
I feel so good right now! It’s 9:25AM and I walked 6 miles round trip to Albertson’s. I got Three bags of rice A bag of dried garbanzo beans Two cans of garbanzo beans Coconut creamer Almond/sugar/salt snack 5 lbs of passover matza bread/crackers(?) Small bag of chex mix Gluten free garbanzo-based rotini 3 bars […]
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Wed Mar 11 2020
My back hurts. Too many hours hunched over my desk trying to see the monitor more clearly as I play Squad. I slept like shit because I ate too much, too soon before bed. The past few times I’ve played squad, it really wasn’t fun. I’ve just been a bullet magnet. I think it’s because […]
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Fri Mar 6 2020
Ok the past few days have been sub 2000 words and it’s no big deal. I deserve a break and I deserve self-care and I deserve to be well and happy. Actually I don’t want to be happy all the time. It’s something I’ve thought about quite a bit. If I were happy all the […]
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Mon Feb 17 2020
I didn’t write enough yesterday. I only got like 140 words down. I had to partially refund someone on eBay for an old phone I sent them which had a bad batter. I probably still made a profit because I got the phone for free from my mom. I woke up at 1:20 today when […]
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Sat Feb 15 2020
It’s amazing how I can just sleep for hours and hours and hours. I woke up at 10AM or sometime around that, then promptly went back to sleep. I woke up several times after that, each time opting to simply go back to sleep. I feel like I could have done this all day. It’s […]
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Tue Feb 11 2020
The best way out is always through Robert Frost I’m feeling this quote right about now! My checking account is down to $100, and my Paypal account down to $400. It feels a little like the time I lived in Eugene, where I was feeling the weight of living alone on my shoulders. I was […]
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Fri Feb 7 2020
9:30AM. Therapy today. Feeling anxious. Only got 3 hours ofsleep. Lots of scared thoughts are going on in my head this morning. I’m afraid I’m dying because I can feel my shin bones. I’m afraid of crying because I’ve been dulling my feelings about my dad. K. gave me two sheets of paper with affirmations […]
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Thu Feb 6 2020
I was just about to describe how I’m feeling today based on how my eBay sales were today. Then I realized that to do so would be a co-dependent behavior and I should not do that. It’s 4:02 PM and my schedule is happily drifting, as per usual! I am not looking forward to therapy […]
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Wed Jan 29 2020
12:42PM. Just woke up to the sound of my phone vibrating. It was Frontier Behavioral Health, the office I go to for therapy twice a week. They call me too much with reminder calls. I don’t need them– I’m not going to forget!!! Anyway, today I’m going to repair a oneplus one and get it […]
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Sun Jan 26 2020
I didn’t go to Sangha Service. I had a chance to wake up and go, but only with 3 hours of sleep under my belt. I decided to sleep. I’ll have another chance next week to attend! It’s 1:30PM. A. brought me her Co-dependents anonymous book. I’ll put it to good use! I gotta poop […]
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Sat Jan 25 2020
2PM. I just woke up and pooped. Sleep seems restful, but was uncomfortable. I kept waking up and still feeling tired. First I woke up at 7 or 8 AM and I had only gone to sleep around 3AM. I felt well enough to be functional, but I felt I could use a full 8 […]